Joder. I don't even know where to start. I knew I was going to be in for a long ride but I had no idea how challenging, stressful, rewarding and taxing living here would be. Something tragic happened in Albacete where I was originally placed and I was given the opportunity to locate to Madrid. When I first arrived in Spain I landed in Madrid and hated it. It just reminded me of the Spanish version of NYC and was tired of being in a city since I came from Philly and NYC prior. I missed being around green landscapes. I was lucky enough to know some people in Madrid so it made the transition easier. I have never felt so helpless, constantly seeking for aide and being vulnerable. I have realized it takes a strong women to recognize her strengths and her handicaps.
I came to Madrid for a weekend to find a flat, and thanks to the magic of the internet, not only did I find a flat but also a friend. Someone to talk about ideas, share our stories and create with. I am so thankful for his love, compassion and words of encouragement that I wish these moments could last forever, but as Tingluey said, time isn't static, we can keep a watch but we can't hold on to seconds and minutes.
I met a potential lover on the internet that hates me now, got a terrible parasite, had my photography published on a rad local magazine and am working with local designers and tastemakers. Constantly living, learning and soaking up all the knowledge and feelings. Countless hellos and unwanted goodbyes, but everyone I have met thus far, has taught me something. Something I will never forget and will navigate my moral compass. I have learned to be utterly open, never give up and only expect what has already happened. There are decisions you have to make in life and I have to remember one is not better than the other, it is about the type of person you want to become and the choices you make to coincide with your future self.
These photos were all taken in the duration of the last 6 months, some as a visitor and others as a resident in Madrid.